Shattered Dream Brings New Way of Life for Sensei Chaachi

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My Black Belt was originally in Korean Style TKD after which I moved to San Diego in 1994 to instruct while also learning Karate at a prestigious Martial Arts Studio teaching Celebrity Families there. Gravitating into Show Biz in both Hollywood & Las Vegas I stayed in forward motion but felt prompted to shift some focus towards to my empowering of so many battered Women & children who happened across my path.
Since then, I’ve helped many pick up pieces of their shattered dreams to start fresh & succeed in life. I understand their fears, frustrations & inner turmoil since I am a survivor of horrid domestic violence. It became second nature to me, subjectively helping these people thru crisis, transistion & transformation with compassion due to my first hand experience in it.
At my studio, my passion lay in nuturing my ‘Tiny Tigers’…transforming them into amazing productive people who will leave a legacy…walking with strength, determination, & courage while also caring for others….BY THIS I am planting seeds of excellence in them….birthing a fresh generation of peaceful, gentle Warriors…another way for me to transform the world in peace & harmony one person at a time.
Although it was 30 years ago since my being battered those memories still fuel my concern for those who do not break free from such a life sucking bondage…they do not see hope for a new beginning or know how to trust or find an advocate for intervention.
My marriage was hell to endure yet I felt by my unconditional love that I could help my husband be a better man. I stayed 4 years in fear for my life & Christian beliefs which became a jail to me instead of the freedom they represent. After the last physical attack from him 26 years ago I finally broke free. I narrowly escaped being just another tragic case of murder as this involved a loaded weapon being shoved deep into my forehead by this man I ‘loved’.
All those years I was too ashamed to ask for help, I was told I had ‘made my bed’ & having children, I was fearful of the repercussions. I had a fractured jaw when I left, I suffered weeks of multiple abrasions, deep bruises & blackened eyes. Those wounds were only a dim window into the brokeness of my spirit. Nightmares & PTSD caused me to awake screaming & crying in the middle of the night many years afterwards.
I now use my own very personal experience to educate churches & other organizations to be aware that this happens under their radar…& can esculate slowly…stealing the soul of a victim inch by inch without anyone being the wiser. I aim to stop the evil repercussion of abuse & the misunderstanding of the patterns of self destructive behavior that arises as a result of it. Sometimes victims will choose this partner again & again trying to rectify the situation or justify it.
Once my spirit was fully awakened to the dark valley I had survived, I realized that indeed God had remained by my side-He had never deserted me. Some things we endure in life are to help us to teach others who will need us. I realized a powerful peaceful warrior had risen up within me, I became more desirous to save others from the destructive cycle.
Sheer motivation jet-propelled me thru many reflective years of deep learning. I had embraced Martial Arts discipleship to protect myself & my children. Decades of this brought the fearlessness which is necessary to speak out for other victims. This zeal has continued to grow, & empower others in a very positive way…all due to that negative life altering experience. By embracing my past this way, I have chosen future successful energy instead of negativity & toxicity. I am a student of the lessons in life & plan to leave a legacy.
Now opening, is my very own school where I will continue implementing the values of inner healing & Martial Arts in Bonita Springs by the beach. We are located between Naples & Fort Myers, Florida. I invite everyone to rejoice with us in celebration of my GRAND OPENING EVENT including a party & show of seasoned respected Grandmasters who have helped me persue my amazing dream of opening ‘Sensei Chaachi’s Temple.’
Much of my work will continue to be in the spirit of Philanthropy as I love to learn & apply both the spiritual & emotional lessons while teaching Martial Arts. I believe inner & outer growth walk hand in hand….one can’t exist without the other for full harmony & tranquility.
I’ve begun tracing my tree of experience to share more deeply & those who are still available are rising to meet my request in the nurture & discipleship of my students as well. I look back to over 20 years of my own excellent personal discipleship & the discipline of Martial Arts …I see the journey of an amazing progressive transformation in even my most hungry student while she stands before my mirror looking right back at me….I know my destiny is unfolding beautifully into my future.
I LOVE this life of service I give to others. It is my very own special ‘way of life’ that I share everyday. I hope with all my heart this will be the tip of a wonderful new life changing journey for yourself as well…embracing what may have been your most shattered dreams in life & using that to propel you into your significant life altering destiny & embracing others with love, power, & healing for all of your students & of yourself!

May God bless you as you make your quantum leap today!
With Love,
Sensei Chaachi

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In My Heart of Hearts….

In my heart of hearts….I desire to make such an impact on the world that I’m never forgotten nor any of what I’ve experienced was in vain.[Chaachi]

What I mean by this is somehow within me, I choose to muster all the courage & passion it takes to march forward towards finding the most important reason I was born. I want to with all due diligence start bringing forth the best in me to carry out what I am here for. I want to leave here a master of my destiny, accomplished & feeling that I know when I look into my creators eye we will be one. I will know I have hit the mark & made the best of my life. That I gave my full love to all who needed it. That I did not hold back, but I loved with reckless abandon.
I want to FEEL, I want to EXPERIENCE, I want to KNOW that my life was not wasted by me.
With every sense God gave me, I feel I am here to help ease some of the pain away from the lonely dying people of the world. These I speak of are not lonely because they know no one but they find themselves abandoned and lonely because they long so much to be with the ones they truly love…in fellowship, in harmony, in sync… but for some reason some link is missing & they are just not connected the way they dream of being.
Have you ever had a friend that you loved so very much but they have no time for you? (ouch) Or do you have a family member who professes that You mean everything to them, yet they speak ill of You when you are not close by?… (ouch)
I think everyone can think of a time when they thought someone really cared and yet they just did not experience true demonstration of those fluffed up words they heard from their mate’s lips. Who is really left standing by your side in the end? Who is there beside you to hold your hand no matter what happens in life. (ouch) When you lay upon your death bed who will be there wiping your tears from the corners of your eyes & theirs? Will it be me again? Yes, I will again be there.
Those thoughts of my ever feeling so alone or seeing others who have died without a friend has truly hurt me to the bone. To see so many misunderstand how real a friendship & love can truly be is a heavy crush to the gentle spirit that resides within me.
These thoughts run thru my mind at night, and they break my heart during the day, and they continue to shake my confidence in humanity. Who really cares…I ask again in another way…who really KNOWS HOW TO CARE?
What is love…? Everyone walks in metaphoric circles scratching their heads on this one. From Shakespeare to rock bands …we all are stuck just questioning…is love the way I feel? or Is love a place in time where we are willing to take a bullet for someone? or could it be just the strength that lies within helping another bring out truth and courage from within? what about being depended on to be there when all others take the easy road to avoid temporary discomfort?
Is real love giving of yourself again & again, & even when you feel like you are used up with nothing else left inside but an echo of the words once spoken in vain about how REAL this all is & how you are loved in return?
I have been left feeling at times like the plastic soda bottle washed ashore, being beaten by angry waves tossed by the wind left and right against the jagged rocks of the shoreline. Alone, empty, insignificant, used up, bobbing up & down in a sea of uncertainty?
What is love, truly what is it?
I fear that many will never really know the feeling of what it is to be even just willing to die for someone….or to live one more day for someone, or to even place themselves in another’s shoes to feel how they REALLY feel. Where are the true friends that will share some of our pain, brush off some of our disappointment, soothe a bit of the affliction? Where is my equal partner who will gently listen to me as I cry softly, walking myself thru the painful valleys in life towards excellence on the mountains to come? Is this not to be expected of, dreamed of, desired of real friendship or to be inside the ‘limitless boundaries’ of true love? Nothing less and nothing more seems to be real for me in my heart when I love. Does my heart truly not fit into this cold, unreciprocating planet?
In this busy world it seems almost impossible to know a friend that is willing to become uncomfortable long enough to even go the extra mile for another.
How about taking calls at all hours of the night for someone who is in distress or involved in a relationship with a crazy person that they are too afraid to stay with yet too burdened to leave? How many of you will at least stand by & hold a pony tail off the shoulders of a friend as they spill their guts into the toilet with a contagious flu? Who here would truly jump in front of a car to try to stop it from smashing into your best friend? Or give a kidney to their dying brother? How many people will even set aside their own misery or comfort to answer the phone for that 99th rings when your depressed friend is calling again? How many will sit thru the evening encouraging someone lost in their addictions & can’t get themselves together as easily this time as others you have rescued before?
Let’s count up the times you tell your friend you love them and that you will always make time to truly listen to their deepest secret fears. Do you need both hands for this? I truly hope so or you have not only robbed yourself but your partner as well of the wealth of unspeakable blessed communion.
Who here can promise they won’t fall apart or fall asleep or fall back on excuses when someone truly needs for you to stay awake & pray with them? Even Jesus didn’t have such a friend to lean on in the garden as he prayed before his death. He had a friend who claimed he never knew him.
How well do we know our ‘friends’, do we claim to know them better than we really do? How well do they know us? I hope when I leave this world, people will know that they KNOW that I love them.
Let my life not be in vain, Lord, let me help to make a difference. Help me, Father in Heaven, to be a better friend & and a greater example to others who call me their friend and their family. May I also finally find that soulful friend who will return my love to me with the same depth as I feel that which I call unconditional love. May that love never go unreturned, unwelcomed, unblessed or ever to be returned void. Father teach me of real friendship in a world of such independance, solitude, and selfishness.
My friends that I have lost to cancer, drugs, accidents, addictions, suicide, and disease ….they will always still walk alive & well in my heart of hearts. Forever unjudged, fully loved, whole, and sadly missed in my soul. To them I send this care up forward. May they all be looked after by you Lord as you love them more than the world could ever know…even more than I could possibly love them– which is plain crazy ALOT.
Let me say it once again: In my heart of hearts….I desire to make such an impact on the world that I’m never forgotten nor any of what I’ve experienced was in vain.[Chaachi]

Chaachi

To my friend, Nadine

HI. Ok so I woke up again to the sound of the sea gulls and other birds. I just love it here. I saw today a little bobber type thing pop up out of the river I am sure it is either a seal or one of the other type of sea creatures that pass thru here…funny to just watch them bob in & out of the water. What a life for them huh?
I think of you often, Nadine. I shared more of your story yesterday about how your exboyfriend stalked you, and shot you leaving you blinded and in much pain and then killed himself. It was with my very own daughter that I had this discussion, as she is in the process of ending her relationship with a very possessive temperamental boyfriend. A man who claims he is in church now so he is ‘better’ supposedly…well that was also the case with my daughter’s Father-the one who severely abused me, almost killing me.
Yesterday, I guess she was telling this man, while driving of all things, that it is OVER between them & that she has met someone else & wants him OUT of her life completely…yet she was driving him to pick up his check or some errand for him again. They were arguing and then she ended up swerving off the road, across the freeway. Her new car struck the railing on the other side of the road causing significant damage to her vehicle. Luckily they were not hurt physically.
He then started to scream at her about her ‘careless driving’ rather than accept partial responsibilty for arguing while she was driving. I told her #1) Don’t ever discuss emotional stuff when you drive #2) End this diluted, toxic relationship quickly to move forward with your life #3) Let him know that her family knows the relationship is now completely OVER and that we will be watching out for her best interest #4) Don’t fool around by ‘seeing him as a friend’ as this can lead to drastic behavior from someone who does not want to let go and then it can lead to a dangerous stalking situation as some people do not take too kindly to being a friend after being a lover #5) There are people that suffer from bi-polar like he does, and are also on meds, but they can flip out and not even realize the extent of their heated aggression #6) Others also like him, who profess that they feel hopeless without the relationship which can be a real red flag & should be handled as such-call mental helath care providers, crisis intervention and get a restraining order if they do not understand or honor the very firmly stated: “Goodbye, its over!”
I shared your story about how you tried to pacify your ex too, as we all have before…I have had one in particular stalk me with professions of ‘reciprocate my undying love ‘or else’ etc & it’s nothing less than freaking scary!
On top of that, for many years, I struggled with nightmares that I was telling my ex abuser that I ‘loved him’ etc to pacify his irrational rage…even that dream which is a form of PTSD after such a violent attack (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) was so stinking disempowering! I had to work to overcome this anguish even in what shoudl have rightfully been my relaxing moments during sleep.
A woman can be so confused as to what to do or say to survive. We are taught to be polite and respectful, but as you know that ladylike Southern charm doesnt work with a bully.
If you have any other suggestions I can make to my daughter and other young women like her in situations that compromise their smarts & tug at their heart strings, please let me know. It’s a shame, yet a seriously important realization, to undertand & accept that our kids do have a tendency or genetic leaning to copy the choices we’ve made when we were young & naive.

Love, Chaachi

A High Five to God

Wednesday, October 07, 2009
12:22 PM

A High Five To God!
 
 I had a few hernias that I had finally went in this week to get the surgery consult on as Ivanov was pushing me to just get it over with…but I really kept asking ‘Jesus please heal my hernias’….the ultrasounds all showed these & so did the CT-scan…the Drs told me again & again that these do not just go away—that they only get worse & are dangerous….but I still had some hope in my heart that Jesus will still heal me.   I was im agreement that these were upper abdominal hernias all this time too due to the fact that about 12 years ago I had 2 repaired which they thought were due to kickboxing & this felt very much the same to me as that over the last few years during heavy lifting or vigorous exercise.
 
  Even though I’d been diagnosed with them & 2nd opinons & 3rd opinions still concurred with the initial diagnosis over the past few years, I continued to push off the surgery. I kept repeating the tests, ct scans & ultrasound & x-ray to rule surgery out but the more tests they did the more they insisted I have surgery. In my heart I felt …‘I need to just give God a bit more time to repair this for me’… sounds silly I think.. But oh well, It’s my childlike faith!? ( giggle)
 
My Martial arts Dragon Tattoo covers my abdomen since I felt the dragon was a tad bit less scarey than the ugly scars so even though I chose not to go thru all that pain again, I hesitantly agreed with my husband to go see the hernia specialists to get this surgery finally scheduled to get on again fully with my active karate lifestyle. He was worried about these progressing too as they had warned us a number of times they will never go away, only become more problematic.
 
This week, Monday, the hernia specialists did another ultra sound & exams & although I did feel tender where they pushed & poked me with the equipment–guess what? They said they see NO upper abdominal hernias!!!

I have a teeny one near the naval but not anything like what all those tests showed b4!!! I could not have gotten better news!!!  I may just need to do some form of regular deep muscle relaxation for my body because my muscles automatically tense up & tighten all the time. I have been trying to do some isolated relaxation for the muscles for awhile but that so far it has not helped. They are not sure what’s causing this but…say its not hernias! (smile)
 
It was so funny to because when they went out of the room to consult Ivanov said “don’t worry, honey, Jesus will heal you thru this surgery.”  I said “Really… Well  I want  Jesus to  heal me RIGHT NOW without the surgery!”

 Well, now guess what? I have to laugh out loud because they came back in to check some more & they can’t find anything except that little one now!!! They said my muscle tone is so good in my stomach that it could be too much exercise…. I don’t even exercise much anymore & had stopped competing in kickboxing due to guarding my stomach for so long since I was told it was hernias– but some of the karate stuff occasionally I do like straight up stretch kicks for the abs—which apparently may be working a little too well!! At my age…I will take that as a real blessing!
 
I am amazed I was laughing so hard because the hernia surgeon told me… ‘these don’t just go away’…and he was perplexed but what he saw as he still had them do the scans again & again…
standing up, sitting down & reclined… I said: ‘We ARE praying people!!!’ & I laughed with glee! Hahaha!!

The surgeon didn’t seem  too amused but he was happy to see how happy I was with the flabbergast of them not being able to see the hernias now at all & saying they won’t be doing surgery! Its like I wanted to give God a high five!  I was ecstatic!  God’s timing is perfect! The technician & the Surgeon kept comparing the ultrasound & cat scans to see: ‘ how is this possible??!!’
My guess of course is that anything is possible with God!
 
Now we are praying for you too!

Effecting a New Generation

Wow, last night I came home from lunch and a shopping trip with my son & there was the girl I rescued last year standing in my driveway just getting out of her car she had popped over unannounced to see us when she arrived here from Columbia! What perfect timing! I knew she was coming but didn’t know exactly when so My heart skipped a beat when I saw her! She was with her mother who lives also in Columbia & her new boyfriend who lives in Germany, very happy & looking healthy! It was super good to see her. I took some quick video clips of her story & will edit it & have it ready to roll soon on my website. She has now been instrumental to reaching out to others who like us were abused, attacked, or in a situation that may lead to that. I am so glad it’s like starting another generation of heightened awareness! Her mom thanked me profusely & lots of hugs & tears from her. My friends new boyfriend was polite, & soft spoken. Seems like a very gentle caring person. All is well! Makes a person really sigh with relief & realize too that hearts heal & move forward when allowed the safe space within time to do so. 

Talk to you soon,
Chaachi

My God can answer a Prayer in 15 minutes!

HI You guys!

Well we certainly know our God is in control of everything! Here’s a good story to add to our many collections of them:
We always end up where God wants us ultimately & are happy people. My husband & I will finally go to take our Florida Real Estate test, once we get moved and settled in our new place by the beach! This is something we meant to do 2 years ago, but maybe the Lord protected us there too since many of the agents are in trouble now due to the inflated appraisals, flip deals and crazy making that took place everywhere ecspecially coastal areas like Florida. We always have so many things on our plate but so it seems to be overflowing, and I love to share our blessings with the people we love!

More good news– I rented out our house in 1 day here!

How do you like that in this economy?! Isn’t that fabulous? I had gotten a call minutes after FINALLY poking a little rent sign in my yard (no traffic here either so didn’t think it would be too effective but someone called 2 minutes after sign went up as they drove by our house looking in our area, & were ‘SURE they wanted it & wanted to see inside next day’ …but something came over me to pray about 10:00 PM sometime just in case ‘ Ok Lord, bring me the right person for this house’…and the next day my business associate/Public Relations Agent shocked me by asking if I’d rent to HIM! ( hahaha)

Now we will have a place to stay when we need to work in Miami too! I asked him what came over him as he was living in South Beach!! He said he didn’t know but he felt a desire for this idea all of a sudden at about 10:15 or 10:30 pm. I was like “what???? Hahaha! I guess My God answers prayer & sends out messages within 15 minutes to 30 minutes delivery time! “ THEN I told him about the prayer I shot up to God In a few words & he laughed so hard because he is also a believer & had been considering how much he’d LOVE to move to a more serene suburban area since he works from home too. He hadn’t even thought about it until I mentioned that someone wanted our place when the sign went up!

So…there’s our miracle of the week! It’s always about FAITH in God’s judgment about what’s best for US.

Chaachi

Life… & freedom..such a challenge for some

Early October, I will be reuniting with a Young Lady who I helped to get back home to Columbia & out of her abusive marriage. We had to fight the church tooth & nail for her…as she was on staff there & they didn’t want to lose her. It was obvious to me that they wanted to see the ‘good in people’ but didn’t see the dangers of her sticking around where they allowed the perpetrator to still frequent.…which I can SMELL by now if life. I had to rush in for that rescue big time last year. We Sure did find out who was real & who was fake, who were friends & who were roadblocks. Such are the lessons in life, hmmm?
Anyway…she is in a new & happy relationship & reunited with her parents. She is coming here now to make her divorce final with the attorney I was able to find for her that is doing it for nearly free! I am so blessed that she is happy & alive & healthy after her husband was stalking & abusive countless times right after marriage & then told me on the phone he would end his life if I didn’t give his wife back to him yada-yada-yada. No way.

Two days ago, I had to teach another little girl who has teeny baby how to file a restraining order, one that will stick, to get her aggressive (bipolar?) boyfriend to back out of her life. She told me he had not only kicked down the entrance door to her fathers apartment where she & her baby live, but also in grand style kicked down her bedroom door where she was on the phone calling 911 to report him. This time he just stood there crying when the police arrived so that his tears will convince my little friend not to follow thru on charges….yeah, ok right!
PRESSING CHARGES CAN SOMETIMES SAVES LIVES! She & Baby are fine for now, but Mr. Boyfriend is on the lamb. His parents are protecting him & trying to make nice about the incident once again, as these things are common for their son. They too have been a victim of his violent outburts & physical abuse. They are heartbroken but “it’s their son”.
My own son made a valid point to this girl on the phone stating:….”Even Jeffery Dommer’s mother loved her son and thought he was a good boy…think about it….”
Maybe that if nothing else woke my little friend up…hopefully this time atleast enough to follow thru on pressing charges against Mr. Boyfriend.

God Bless, Life & freedom….what a challenge for some…

Chaachi